To be or not to be...

"To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action. - Soft you now!
The fair Ophelia! Nymph, in thy orisons
Be all my sins remember'd.
& kenneth branagh doing to be... "

HAMLET, Shakespeare

¿What can I do? I am an authentically romantic! An artistic, literally and intellectual thinking. My mind sometimes is getting confuse. Perhaps my soul don´t know exactly how works the real World...maybe I wont it! 

The reaction against to the logic, the super talent of think and think and think again. Is not so good to think after the last line because could be dangerous and yourself will be inside of the infinite space.  The effect was probably most significant.

The thinking was absolutely essential for the heart...but not for the body. Head would to explode!

I was in the Matrix, the real one...the Robot´s World, this one was getting most difficult for the situattion.

The human side was fighting against intelligent machines. The meaning of machine was saying something like Hannes said the last time: -Understand real good machines is complicated- And then come: When you understand the "complicated machines", everything get bored and easy as well.
I wait to miracles, the magic is around me every day, my eyes can look it on the way. But not everyone look it, the perspective is always different and this one make me crazy.
I´m not a normal person, also not a normal girl...I´m a dreamer but I need to understand I´m not the only one and the way of the dreams works in different ways.
I am happy because I think everything is getting well but in the other side I feel sad, Why I need to feel it? Why I need to be dramatic? The drama is something most than usual in my culture, but here not is like that. The things look easy, so I must to forget to think and feel, I must to be most practice and do everything with plans, well I´m not so bad in it but I don´t like to make plans because you don´t know what can change in the last minute.
There has never been a general agremment on the definition of Existencialism, so why I need to get it in my mind? Maybe I came for other age or I don´t know is just a feeling. I like to believe in my feelings, for that Im the person I am right now.
I just need to keep calm, stop to think and be on my way and follow just my dream without think stupid things that can handle me in a bad mood. Positive like always and then the magic and butterflies come back like every moment.